Time flies, time for a Change!

I haven't wrote in a while. My nine year old son Jordan dropped my laptop and broke my charger so I had to order another one on amazon and it came in the mail yesterday. That was a pain. I have been thinking a lot lately about life and how time flies and with each passing year how things seem to stay the same in my life and I never change the things that I say I am going to change. I was watching Dr. Oz of course and they were talking about Alzheimer's and how it is like a type 3 diabetes because they know that the more you eat sugar the more likely you are to have Alzheimer's. I am a diabetic and my grandmother had Alzheimer who was also a diabetic so it got me all scare because I don't want to forget one memory or moment I have had in my life. even the bad things. I take a lot of pictures so that I don't forget moments in my life. I have been struggling with my weight for a while now. I have a plan and a new look on life if you want to call it that. I am going to video log my progress to losing weight and getting healthy and not just me but my kids too. I just woke up one day and told myself I was going to live not die. I am starting on the and for thirty days I am going to follow Dr. Oz and the whole 30. I kicking processed foods to the curb and making it all fresh and healthy and if after 30  days I don't look great and feel better I can just go back to what I was doing. But as it stands I have diabetes, high blood pressure, low thyroid, planters fecitus, stress fracture to the heal of my foot, high cholesterol, sprained ligament in my left foot, and all around bad health. I feel pain everyday and my head constantly hurts. I used to be scared that if I lost the weight the skin would sag and it would be gross and I would think to myself I would rather be fat then sag but at this point after I lose the weight I will just deal with the duct I will have to have a tummy tuck and a breast reduction because I am a 50 G and after losing weight everything will just hang. But I know that if I want a tummy tuck and a boob job I will just have to work hard and save the money. I have done it before plus I will cross that bridge when I come to it. I am going to work as hard as I can following all the tips and notes I have been taking to pass this journey I must go on to survive. I don't want to live to die. I want to live to live.