Intro to Me

So I woke up and had the biggest redbull ever in life. My son who is two woke up soon after that. Then I made both my kids breakfast. While they ate I sat and daydream about being a billionaire then for fun I looked at million dollar homes I can only dream over. After daydreaming I ate some grapes with the kids and put my face on. I watched rich kids of Beverly hills. I decided that I needed to get off my fat ass. I often wonder why I let myself get like this when I am so beautiful but so fat. But Melissa McCarthy is a big girl and she is beautiful and she is very happy with who she is. I wish I could be like that. She is my new idol. Tori Spellings used to be but.that was before she fall apart and became so over worked and stressed out she just cries and falls apart all the time now. I need a happy role model. She needs to take care of her. I still love her. My kids are playing in a small pool in the back yard. Then its nap time. I am going to pretend I am perfectly happy when I really wanna cry. This is my life. We just moved into this three bedroom house with me, Neil my youngest ones dad, my two boys and my oldest sons dad. Neil just got out of jail for not paying fines and I couldn't make rent on my own so Joe moved in and helped out. It may seem crazy and it may be but in this acconemy you have to compramise if you want to servive. Lets see if Neil feels like getting a job now. We have been together 3 years and he hasn't worked. I support him on top of everything else. I cook I clean. I do it all. See why I wanna cry now.