Music

Because it allows me to say things that I can not find the words to say. So I put on music and listen to the lyrics of a song. I feel it more or less. Sometimes I wish I was brave enough to say the words in songs. I could never ask for help. I have always survived on my own. But the older I get the harder it is to pulls myself out of darkness once it takes over and drugs consume me. Theres no stopping it. I no longer care. I have fallin into a pit of darkness. I am trying to be strong. But I am just not. Sometimes I want to be this great person. Other times I wish I could just stay in the dark and not give a fuck about anything. Am I beautiful? Am I good enough? Am I going to be okay? Am I going to make it? Or will everything crash and burn to the ground only leaving a pile of white ash that blows away in the wind like it was never there.