Grown up stuff

Mowing the lawn, running around, paying bills, and getting groceries all part of being a grown up. Money sure does go fast. Stretching yesterday really felt great. I have been drinking detoxing tea and plenty of water. I am committed to making this work. I hate motivating myself to doing something but once I do it I feel great and I wonder why I ever didn't want to do it in the first place. My son Jordan who is nine is having a hard time with having to change the way we eat. His diet currently consist of protein from meat and carbs from potato chips which after I tell him he has to eat his dinner his dad gives him crap. So I talked to his dad and told him that he can no longer have sugar and crap. I am like its just 30 days. Its not like your never gonna have that stuff again. Its hard to teach kids things when they think that they are right. Anyways I am about to stretch some more and do some leg lifts and butt exercises. I love taking walks but in my neighborhood its scary. too many raps and robberies plus I am always mistaken for a hooker which I don't know how who wants a fat hooker anyways.

Detoxing

So I am getting ready to detox. You should always detox when you are going to diet or change your eating style. Because I am a diabetic I detox often. It helps flush  everything out. I also combined that with drinking distilled water because it helps clean everything out. It also great for sour stomach and other tummy troubles and heartburn. I just drink it for a day and the next day I am good to go. I like to use the book the new detox diet book. it has great recipes and all kinds of detoxing things to do. I love detoxing but I hate the next day when I have no energy and I feel weak but its because it adjusting to no sugar which I am no stranger to. I love Redbulls and for the next 30 days I have to say good bye to them. I have been stretching my muscles out. My foot is killing me but I push throw it. It's hard but I have my whole family ready to join in on this with me. Healthy eating healthy life. I have made my list for my 3 day detox and 30 days of eating good. I can't wait to try the recipes on Dr. Oz. It was great how his web site laid out the recipes and ingredients I would need to shop for it makes this easier on a busy mom like me.

This is the list I use.

Droz List: The Perfect Grocery Shopping List for Weight Loss and Good Health!

    

 

Fruits

Apples, oranges, strawberries, cantaloupe, watermelon, bananas, grapes, blueberries, cherries, avocado, raspberries, peaches, apricots, tomatoes and pineapple. Fruits are a great source of fiber, which fills you up and contributes to a healthy digestive system.

 

Vegetables

Onions, mushrooms, carrots, peppers, cauliflower, zucchini, celery, asparagus, broccoli, beets, spinach, cucumbers, romaine lettuce and kale. olive oil. Vegetables are low in calories and rich in vitamins and minerals.

 

Black Beans

black, kidney, pinto, navy, and garbonzo. Beans and other legumes are a terrific source of lean vegetarian protein.

 

Nuts

Almonds, walnuts and cashews. Nuts have been linked to lower cholesterol, better heart health, and weight control.

 

Whole, Unprocessed Grains

Quinoa, whole wheat pasta, couscous and steel cut oats. Unprosessed grains are slow to digest, helping us control blood sugar and are filled with vitamins and minerals (they’re satisfying aswell, helping us curb our appetite).

 

Meat

Chicken breast, pork chops, fish and seafood. A 3-ounce serving of roasted chicken breast only contains 7 grams of fat and 170 calories. The key to all meats is choosing the leanest cuts available.

 

Dairy

Low fat milk, eggs, plain yogurt, cottage cheese. Low Fat dairy products aid bone density and blood pressure – plus there is mounting evidence that calcium from dairy products may play an important part in body-weight regulation.

 

Spices

Cinnamon, oregano, cilantro, black pepper, garlic, parsley, red pepper flakes, ginger and coriander. Spices are an important way to add flavor to any meal, and contain antioxidants, minerals and vitamins.

 

Organic Honey (use sparingly)

Organic honey (but use sparingly). As an alternative to white sugar or sweeteners, honey can’t be beat. For people who are overweight, honey reduces risk of cardiovascular disorders.

 

Cooking Oils

Flaxseed, sesame, walnut, peanut and grapeseed. These oils are from plants, so they’re a healthier way to replace unhealthy fats in your diet. Just use in moderation.

 

Finally, aka sure to avoid “meal replacement” shakes, nutrition bars or anything that says “skinny” or “low cal” on the label. These are usually dead giveaways that they are anything but! Shop smart, eat smart and work toward a healthier, happier you!

Also is recipes of yummy healthy recipes. Droz.com


The Detoxing book I use!

 

Time flies, time for a Change!

I haven't wrote in a while. My nine year old son Jordan dropped my laptop and broke my charger so I had to order another one on amazon and it came in the mail yesterday. That was a pain. I have been thinking a lot lately about life and how time flies and with each passing year how things seem to stay the same in my life and I never change the things that I say I am going to change. I was watching Dr. Oz of course and they were talking about Alzheimer's and how it is like a type 3 diabetes because they know that the more you eat sugar the more likely you are to have Alzheimer's. I am a diabetic and my grandmother had Alzheimer who was also a diabetic so it got me all scare because I don't want to forget one memory or moment I have had in my life. even the bad things. I take a lot of pictures so that I don't forget moments in my life. I have been struggling with my weight for a while now. I have a plan and a new look on life if you want to call it that. I am going to video log my progress to losing weight and getting healthy and not just me but my kids too. I just woke up one day and told myself I was going to live not die. I am starting on the and for thirty days I am going to follow Dr. Oz and the whole 30. I kicking processed foods to the curb and making it all fresh and healthy and if after 30  days I don't look great and feel better I can just go back to what I was doing. But as it stands I have diabetes, high blood pressure, low thyroid, planters fecitus, stress fracture to the heal of my foot, high cholesterol, sprained ligament in my left foot, and all around bad health. I feel pain everyday and my head constantly hurts. I used to be scared that if I lost the weight the skin would sag and it would be gross and I would think to myself I would rather be fat then sag but at this point after I lose the weight I will just deal with the duct I will have to have a tummy tuck and a breast reduction because I am a 50 G and after losing weight everything will just hang. But I know that if I want a tummy tuck and a boob job I will just have to work hard and save the money. I have done it before plus I will cross that bridge when I come to it. I am going to work as hard as I can following all the tips and notes I have been taking to pass this journey I must go on to survive. I don't want to live to die. I want to live to live.

Dr. Oz

I am a huge Dr. Oz fan. I DVR all the shows and then watch them once a week. I just watched them yesterday and I came to the show about heroin and how it was affecting people. It just got me thinking about the addiction I had over come and how strong I have been since being sober. I often wish I had the courage to say I'm sorry to the people that I hurt during my addiction. I was lucky that I was able to stop and never go back. Not that I am not scared that if I were faced with it what I would do. I just choose to never put myself in the position to give in. I went to bed last night hot. My air conditioner motor went out. I was so roasting in the bed next to Neil who was also roasting and I'm sure our kids were dying as well. The handy man fixed it today and it fells great. Makes me think of people who don't even have an air conditioner in the world and I wonder how they survive but I know that when you have to do something you just do it. I have been trying to get organized. My OCD has laid dormant enough. Its time to get busy and get things done. I have lived in this house for 3 months and its not how I want it so I need to get going on doing something with it. I have so many ideas but can't seem to get them together, and that would be the ADHD. I am making hamburgers and polish sausage for dinner. Something simple since last night I made rib eye steaks, scallop potato's, green beans, corn on the cob, and cherry pie so tonight I wanted it to be easy. I asked Neil why he didn't take his lunch because we have been trying to save money for a new car and so I would think that in his mind taking left overs would save him from spending money everyday for lunch and he told me he didn't have enough time. Now how hard is it to make lunch the night before, get up earlier and prepare it, or wake me up so I can make it for you. Three options to choose from and he chooses to buy his lunch. Are all men like this or just mine. and the thing is I'm not the one who said anything about saving money he was. So if you wanna save money why are you spending it. Makes no since to me. But I love him so I will just set my own alarm every morning and make his lunch for him. What we women go throw. Well I gotta go the kids are splashing water everywhere and trying to drown each other. Until next time this is my life.

Is It Really Monday?

I lost a day some how. I thought today was Sunday. Could it be that my life is so busy that I lost a day. I woke up this morning with my ankle killing me. I fell on it on Christmas and they doctors told me it was not broken but that I needed an MRI to see if I tore muscle or anything else. I haven't had time to go to get an MRI yet especially since I have been without a car. Its hard to depend on others and I hate having someone help me. So as most mothers do we put off what we need to provide for the kids. I could barely walk around but I knew I needed to go to the store and pay our cell phone bill so I got up got dressed and just went. It was painful but I did it anyways. It felt good to walk around. Really energized me up. Then I came home and did stretches and leg lifts. Me and the kids played in the pool. It was fun. I almost forgot about my pain for a while but then I couldn't move it again so I took a pain pill and a muscle relaxer and now I am making tacos. I feel pretty good. Today when I was playing with Liam my two year old I was wondering if everything I am teaching him matters. I love when he gives me hugs and kisses and is kind and shares his toys. He is so sweet and I hope that he stays that way and remembers all the good things that I teach him in life. It's like magic every time he learns something new. I think I get as excited as he does. Anyways I have to go before I burn dinner and I never burn dinner. Cooking is such a huge passion of mine. I just wish eating wasn't. Eat less burn more!

Just another day

He got a job. Neil got a job only because I went to work there too. Paranoid much. Gotta keep a close eye on me with all the baking and home cooked meals and laundry to do I must be doing something wrong again. So my boyfriend Neil was off work today and we decided to grill out pork ribs and steak. It was so good. I let the kids play in the pool. We had to do laundry which was a pain. The laundry mat across the street was completely busy and was a mess. People always stair when I go in there. We got the laundry done. I asked Neil what he would do if we ever won the lottery. I told him I would buy all of our family members a house in Rivendell and a new car. Then we started saying all the things we would do for other people. It was a nice thought. My son Jordan has been bugging me about his tenth birthday. We have been talking about my other sons birthday because its in July and he will be two. On his first birthday we didnt have any money so we didnt have a party for him. It's sad when you can not provide everything you want to in life for your kids. Well its just another day in my life. I have to clean up the house now. Since no one else wants to do it but I don't mind I just wish I got a thank you.

Intro to Me

So I woke up and had the biggest redbull ever in life. My son who is two woke up soon after that. Then I made both my kids breakfast. While they ate I sat and daydream about being a billionaire then for fun I looked at million dollar homes I can only dream over. After daydreaming I ate some grapes with the kids and put my face on. I watched rich kids of Beverly hills. I decided that I needed to get off my fat ass. I often wonder why I let myself get like this when I am so beautiful but so fat. But Melissa McCarthy is a big girl and she is beautiful and she is very happy with who she is. I wish I could be like that. She is my new idol. Tori Spellings used to be but.that was before she fall apart and became so over worked and stressed out she just cries and falls apart all the time now. I need a happy role model. She needs to take care of her. I still love her. My kids are playing in a small pool in the back yard. Then its nap time. I am going to pretend I am perfectly happy when I really wanna cry. This is my life. We just moved into this three bedroom house with me, Neil my youngest ones dad, my two boys and my oldest sons dad. Neil just got out of jail for not paying fines and I couldn't make rent on my own so Joe moved in and helped out. It may seem crazy and it may be but in this acconemy you have to compramise if you want to servive. Lets see if Neil feels like getting a job now. We have been together 3 years and he hasn't worked. I support him on top of everything else. I cook I clean. I do it all. See why I wanna cry now.