Whats Up Lately

So I went to Oklahoma City to work from Lawton last week doing stagehand stuff. I've been back stage most of my life. My dad was in this business a long time. When he used to take me back stage I would watch them roll boxes on wheels down the ramps someone would be yelling stage right stage left. It was so amazing to me. My dad had two rules. Don't date a stagehand us girls had to date decent guys with good paying jobs which we didn't at least not at first, and the second rule was never be a stagehand. I was the only one that fell in love with it. I worked Disney On Ice from 2002 til now off and on. And the first concert I worked was Linkin Park. My favorite place was by a big speaker next to the stage. The sound of the music vibrating through my body was amazing. They took an empty space and made something with it where great songs would play. Music has always held a special place. It speaks to me. I listen to all music and lyrics. So after not working anything but Disney for five years I was going to work. I forgot how much I missed it. The people around me were like family. Some have known me since I was little. But it made me sad to think of those no longer with us. I'm going back Sat. To work again. I'm trying to decide if I should move there. I missed having friends. I've been cut off from the world for so long that I didn't realize how lonely and sad I was. I want to do this job and I want to be great at it. Partly because I want to make my dad proud partly because its a passion. Partly because when you hear a great musician like Elton John play and u can feel the vibrations of the piano in the nose bleed section u will fall in love to. This is what I want to focus on. Nothing else matters right now but figuring me out and who I am. For too long now I have stood by some man making his dreams come true and supporting them. Its time for me.