Love

Does love come to us all? Sometimes the thins we want are not the things we get. My whole life I have been looking for love. I found liars and cheaters, users and abusers. Paranoid not trusting people, addicts and theives. But no one to love me. My 33rd birthday is coming up and my conclusion is it may never happen. I may never get marriage or fall in love. Be a couple who you see on the street that when they look into each others eyes the only person they see is each other. I've seen pictures where you can tell that they are truley in love. I'm a little jealous I had to admit. I want that. But I'm not so desperate that I want it now. I want forever. I want to be someone's forever. I want someone to look at me and think hes so lucky to have found me. That we are lucky to have found each other. Is that dumb. To believe in that. I really don't know. I'm alone even in a crowded room. People are talking to me but I'm not listening to what the say. I'm in my own mind wondering around lost and scared and losing hope.