Finding a House

OMG this is so hard. I have a place that helps with down payments and closing cost but first you have to  be approved for a loan then you have to find a realtor and then find a house. the choices are many. papers are sky high. Weight loss not so good. I have lost about 20 pounds but then I got stressed and had set backs but I am not giving up just got to work harder. A guy shot someone in the apartments next door four times then kicked in our back fence to get away from the police so that is what prompted me to want to move. I mean I am thirty one I should be doing this any ways. I have so many things I need to get done. It just all cost money which I don't have right now but I am not giving up I know I am meant to do greater things then this.