What is a Soul Mate?

I have been doi g research on soul mages because its very confusing. I think I have found my. First we can not be mad at each other. We can't walk away from each other. From the moment I meet him it was like I wanted to be with him and I didn't know why. We spent every day together. Unable to move without him. He moved in with me and he had never done that before. We were saying I love you its weird honest. He tells me everything and I tell him everything. I try to walk away and I can't maily because a love like this is crazy and scary. You think of all the things that could ho wrong. I am so happy I am terrified.  To say the least anyways life has been okay. My brother died.  It really got to me because he was only 41 and he had all these health problems. I keep telling myself to call or to go see him and I never did. I feel so bad. What kinda sister am I. A very bad one apparently.  I had to talk to my mom. To make funeral arrangements.  It was okay. Well thats all for now. 

Falling apart all over again

So I thought I was past a lot of things.  But when Liams dad wanted to take him and I had to talk to him. And then I saw him I was over whelmed with emotions and anger. I even yelled at my new boyfriend over bull shit because I was so mad I needed to yell. I couldn't figure out what I was so mad about.  Then the tears came and I put it together.  There is a lot of shit he did to me in 5 years. I don't trust I questioned everything I am leery towards things. I have panic attacks and emotional break downs where I can't catch my breathe. I am afraid of everything and everyone.  Some how he gets to be free and I get this.  A crazy person attitude. Us breaking up was supposed to free me. I was gonna be free. Now I feel more caged then ever in some ways. I want to break the chains that i am bound to. I don't want to worry. I just want to change the course of my life just a little.