Promises

 A promise what is that. No one ever keeps there promises. I promise I love u. I promise I'll treat you right. I promise I'll be there. It's a load of crap. It's more like I will pay attention to everybody else. I will leave all the time and lie about where and with who and not tell u and be gone for hours. I won't help u at all. Yep sounds right. Broken promises is all I ever get. I ask myself why I keep doing this. Because really I have myself to blame. I could leave him but I don't. I take the pain and cry. That's all I can do.

Fighting

Okay I became friends with this guy. We clicked and istantly I could tell we were gonna be friends. Everything was good except he kept telling me his old lady had one eye on me. I was like why. So one day he came over and gave me a ring. He didn't look at me and was acting wierd. I told him I didn't want it but he insisted so I did. I left it on my finger because I was budy fixing food and having people over.  I forgot all about it. They came over later and she saw it and asked to see it. Now I had two choices let her think I stole it or tell her the truth. I went with the truth. So of course her boyfriend got mad at me I thought he would tell the truth but he didn't he still lied and throw me under the bus. I mean why did he give it to me. Anyways he hasnt spken to me and now he is echnoring the whole thing and pretending I don't exsist. So I have no idea what to do. Im sad pissed off confused and mad as hell. I want to yell at him. I wrote a whole note and thought I would feel better but I don't.  So I am gonna try and keep busy and not think about how I let another person in my life who abandons me at the first