So So with the Joy

I feel like things are happening but in a so so kind of way if that makes since. God keeps telling me that something big is coming my way and I should be patient and understanding but I'm nervous and inpatient. Which I should work on. I am watching these two girls for some extra cash starting Monday. I am really excited because its more income and who couldn't use more of that. I was the hostess of a Pure Romance girls night which was fun. Even thou I sell It Works our products are very different from Pure Romance and I support any mom trying to make a living. It was exciting. I talked to her about it works and she talked to me about Pure Romance. It was fun. My house is almost done decorating for the holidays and I am almost done Christmas shopping I just have to get the money for the food I am serving on Christmas dinner. I want to make something different I feel as thou I make the same things for Christmas that I do thanksgiving only I add a ham. I am so lost. I have been going on Pinterest to find ideas and the only ones I like is the dessert. I guess I could make every one pies and cakes and cookies for dinner. lol Well all and all its been great. I feel more in love with Neil then I ever have and I enjoy my sons company even thou the autism seems to be getting worse the older he gets. The more melt downs and stress but i am not giving up. I know I can do this and get him the help he needs if only I could afford to move to Edmond where they have wonderful schools and programs for kids like him and he could make friends. Here is to dreaming and making all my dreams come true.

Tree Trouble

I had ordered a tree from Fingerhut.com. It was suppose to be a gorgeous 6.5 Montana tree. When I opened the box it barely stood four feet. I wanted to cry. So I called the number for customer service. I got a person who doesn't speak English and who I couldn't understand. I told her the situation she told me I had to return the tree and then when they received the item back they could then refund me or then exchange. I was like this is your problem. You sent me the wrong tree. Now I have to wait 2-3 weeks for a different tree. No Christmas is around the corner I am keeping the tree. I am disappointed but Christmas isn't about house big your tree is or how perfect you house and decorations look. It about how you feel and the people that make you feel that way. I love my family and the way things are in my life. I am glad there is a roof over our heads and that bills are paid. We may not be able to afford everything that we want but we have what we need and we have each other and I am thankful and glad for that. There are other members of my family that I wish were around more but they make there owe choices and I can not change that no matter how much I want to. This Christmas i just want to be with my family and feel loved and happy. Thank you God for another blessed year. I may not have much but you are always looking out for me.