Days of not sleeping and crying. I keep hoping it will stop. I guess I surpressed the feelings long enough that I am just going to have to deal with it now. It's amazing how I thought three months ago I could just wish the pain away. If I removed all evidence of him and pictures then I could pretend it never happened. That the pain wasn't real. But it is. My plan didn't go so well. I fear he has won. That I am damaged and no one will ever want me. Because who wants someone so damaged. He won. He got what he wanted which was for me to be alone forever.
