Things I've lost

I lost almost 70 pounds. I was prescribed ibphrophen 800 for an injury 3 years ago when I had a fall. I was suppose to take three a day. It took them a year to get me to a dr who ordered an MRI that showed I tore muscle ligament and two bone sperns and planters fesitious. So for the next year I had injections of steroids and steroid packs to hopefully fix the pain. I could barley walk on it. Pro long use of steroids causes yeast infections. Yeast builds in the intestinal track. It made ius way to my lungs. Being a diabetic my sugar was uncontrolled and I got really sick. I was still told to take the ibphrophen. I started having pain and swelling in my gall bladder area. I couldn't do anything. I was so sick and in pain and all doctors did was prescribe more pills. Finally after 3 years my mom made a comment about how it may be the ibuprofen. So I looked up longterm uses and side effects and found I had all of them. No Dr ever told me not to be on them long term. While I was on them I got high blood pressure and damage to my eyes from high blood pressure. I stopped taking all my meds. Mostly due to fear. I had to cut out all sugar due to the yeast I had to get rid of because sugar and carbs make it grow. I healed from the yeast and my foot was better. My blood pressure went back to normal and weight started dropping off. I also quit having a red tent to my skin and rashes. But my GI track is still very messed up. Most days I can barely eat a bit. I stay nasiated and in pain. I have been iin pain for three years. Why didn't the doctors see this. Why did they keep prescribing pills. I'm terrified that I will forever have damage from this. Sometimes the side effects out way the reason u need pills in the first place. I would be carefull about taking anything from now on. #pills #ibphrofen #doctors #medications #pharmacy

Life's Never What it Seems

I wish I had a different life. All my life all I wanted is love. Love is supposed to make u a better you and bring out the good. I find myself depressed and sad in a loveless relationship waiting for him to want me the way I need him to want me. No kissing, no talking, no marriage, no I love yous after 4 years. But I keep waiting. I am un appreciated in all I do. He once told me that it was my job. Do u know how many women don't cook or clean or take care of kids. I do every thing and get nothing in return. I mean nothing. I buy everything and make half what he makes. I'm lucky he buys diapers. And all I want in return is to be married and have kids and be loved. I don't know how to get those things. Maybe I stay because I don't think I deserve it. I mean who else would put up with this. But I put on a smile and cry my eyes out at night. Sometimes I feel so alone I wait to die. But I have two boys who need me so I keep it together and do the best I can. Maybe one day I'll get love. I'll find someone who loves me for me. Who loves God and looks and the bright side and lives each day open and honest. Maybe just maybe I'll find that person.