Liars will they never learn

The pain of losing me will burn forever. I promise that the fucked up part is that even though I told u everything that happened in my last relationship you still lied to me cheated on me used me stole from me. And thought u we're smart enough to get away with it. Karma normally takes care of it but I'll deal with this personally and you will feel nothing but pain.

Heartache is real

I often wonder how much pain one can take. I think I have had enough to last lifetimes. Broken promises lies deaths abuse abandonment. I have been shattered beyond repair. And they all say they have patients but they never do. The latest heart break said he would be the first of many. Of many what lies. He said he would never stop looking at me. Yeah that lasted a week. He said he loved me then text flirted with others. If u paid attention to me then u wouldn't have time for others ass hole and it all fell apart in 4 months. He said he would always try hard. More like try hardly. And he loved kissing me! when? When he was telling me I did everything wrong and saying he loved me at the same time. He loved talking with me then stopped one day and we never talked again. He always texted first and told me details where he was what he was doing where he was going.now he don't answer them for days and they are all lies. I am not at the casino being a jack as unable to be an adult. Whatever dude. If lying helps u then so be it. He used to say everything was lovely now he says fuck. Said he doesn't get mad and throw things and break them then why is my dresser and vacuum broke. I never seen someone get so mad before. Except a meth head oh wait that's what u are. U leave without saying a word I won't hear from u unless u want to sleep or eat. U pay no bills and u call talking about my feelings and how this upsets me bitching hum I wonder. At least if I do drugs I keep my shit normal it only falls apart when I fall in love and give everything to the other person. Well I won't fall for that again. I dont wanna wake up one day everything in pawn shop. My money already been stolen. And my shit gone through but no big deal right. Wrong very wrong. Ask any women if a man did this to her if she would stay especially if she hasn't had sex in more than two months. I didn't change u did dude. Dramatically and I will go on because I am a catch. But see karna will fuck u up and u will always regret losing me and miss me because u fucked over a really good loyal decent person to run around like a thug. So was it worth it. U might wanna start looking for someone that will cook clean cater to u r every need and u r guest every need wash your clothes give u message and blow jobs at will and make sure u have money for gas, car payment, casino, stuff u need, drugs, food, and anything else because I am one of a kind. All I asked was for a little time not even much. I asked for an hour on my birthday and didn't even get that. My bad. Just watch a movie or something together alone and u couldn't give me that. That's sad. Have a nice life. What was I wasting my time for. What did u do for me again except nothing but complain and I am the one u call dumb. Looks like u are

Promises

 A promise what is that. No one ever keeps there promises. I promise I love u. I promise I'll treat you right. I promise I'll be there. It's a load of crap. It's more like I will pay attention to everybody else. I will leave all the time and lie about where and with who and not tell u and be gone for hours. I won't help u at all. Yep sounds right. Broken promises is all I ever get. I ask myself why I keep doing this. Because really I have myself to blame. I could leave him but I don't. I take the pain and cry. That's all I can do.

Fighting

Okay I became friends with this guy. We clicked and istantly I could tell we were gonna be friends. Everything was good except he kept telling me his old lady had one eye on me. I was like why. So one day he came over and gave me a ring. He didn't look at me and was acting wierd. I told him I didn't want it but he insisted so I did. I left it on my finger because I was budy fixing food and having people over.  I forgot all about it. They came over later and she saw it and asked to see it. Now I had two choices let her think I stole it or tell her the truth. I went with the truth. So of course her boyfriend got mad at me I thought he would tell the truth but he didn't he still lied and throw me under the bus. I mean why did he give it to me. Anyways he hasnt spken to me and now he is echnoring the whole thing and pretending I don't exsist. So I have no idea what to do. Im sad pissed off confused and mad as hell. I want to yell at him. I wrote a whole note and thought I would feel better but I don't.  So I am gonna try and keep busy and not think about how I let another person in my life who abandons me at the first