Holy Shit

First off lots has happened.  My sister lost her baby 4 days before she was due just like I did. It was awful.  I kinda did what my tarot cards told me not to do but it lead me to this really great guy. I didn't want to like him. We both knew if we did kiss we would just connect and that would be the end. And I did and we did and it's the end. We spent almost everyday together except today. Talking watching movies cuddling.  I think I know most everything about him. One problem he drinks. So thats not good for me because of my demons inside. Then I let my youngest son go with his dad for the weekend he came back calling him dad. Which he never has he says his name. Then he said he needs a dad in his life. I asked him who told him to say that and he said his dads name. So he has been making him call him dad and all kinds of stuff and my son says he dont want to go back.  I am thinking of doing something that I dont want to do just to get rid of him and have someone else name on the birth certificate.  I have a bad feeling he is going to try to do something mean. I don't know what to do. God please help me. I will do anything to protect my child. My sister had her daughters funeral today but no one could go because everyone was sick. Life sucks.

My Sister Lost Her Baby