So So with the Joy

I feel like things are happening but in a so so kind of way if that makes since. God keeps telling me that something big is coming my way and I should be patient and understanding but I'm nervous and inpatient. Which I should work on. I am watching these two girls for some extra cash starting Monday. I am really excited because its more income and who couldn't use more of that. I was the hostess of a Pure Romance girls night which was fun. Even thou I sell It Works our products are very different from Pure Romance and I support any mom trying to make a living. It was exciting. I talked to her about it works and she talked to me about Pure Romance. It was fun. My house is almost done decorating for the holidays and I am almost done Christmas shopping I just have to get the money for the food I am serving on Christmas dinner. I want to make something different I feel as thou I make the same things for Christmas that I do thanksgiving only I add a ham. I am so lost. I have been going on Pinterest to find ideas and the only ones I like is the dessert. I guess I could make every one pies and cakes and cookies for dinner. lol Well all and all its been great. I feel more in love with Neil then I ever have and I enjoy my sons company even thou the autism seems to be getting worse the older he gets. The more melt downs and stress but i am not giving up. I know I can do this and get him the help he needs if only I could afford to move to Edmond where they have wonderful schools and programs for kids like him and he could make friends. Here is to dreaming and making all my dreams come true.